When I think that someone can tell me anything they end up just not telling me. I open that door wide open letting them know you can share what is on your mind, what you need to tell me. Not just say alright I know I can share anything with you, but then after that they don't. Why do I even bother? Really? Why should I bother letting myself be open to what they need to say? Right time or not. Time has got absolutely nothing to do with telling someone something unless it is a marriage proposal. The thing is they tell me to come to them if ANYTHING bothers me. If something does I will open up and explain it does bother me, and list those reasons why. They become happy how I opened up so much to them, and I expect the same loving gesture in return. I wait, and wait, and wait. Drink something, do my workouts, read a book, and continue waiting. *Crickets chirping* Okay any...minuteeee...... and.... NOTHING.
Literally...
I sit here keeping myself occupied with what I love doing. Still they never come to me and share how they feel, or what they are thinking. Then I wonder "What was the point?", "Why open up if they cannot open up to you?"
Yes, I am still working on not overreacting whenever they share something that can cause me to freak out. Lately it has not happened and I am very proud of myself. Right now I have been taking care of myself by working out lifting weights, doing my stretches, deep breathing and relaxation etc. I feel so much better now that I can take care of myself more than I use to.
Taking care of myself seems more important right now. Than worrying about why someone doesn't share anything with me when they need to. If I am not told I end up finding out another way, and I am like "How can you feel like you cannot tell me this?" I feel as if I am just here to be here. My job is to keep doing my exercises and take care of myself. Keep growing spiritually etc. So that is what I will do from now on. Just focus on taking care of myself. If that person wants to open up to me then fine open up. If not then alright don't be bothered by me taking care of myself. Growing more spiritual everyday.
Literally...
I sit here keeping myself occupied with what I love doing. Still they never come to me and share how they feel, or what they are thinking. Then I wonder "What was the point?", "Why open up if they cannot open up to you?"
Yes, I am still working on not overreacting whenever they share something that can cause me to freak out. Lately it has not happened and I am very proud of myself. Right now I have been taking care of myself by working out lifting weights, doing my stretches, deep breathing and relaxation etc. I feel so much better now that I can take care of myself more than I use to.
Taking care of myself seems more important right now. Than worrying about why someone doesn't share anything with me when they need to. If I am not told I end up finding out another way, and I am like "How can you feel like you cannot tell me this?" I feel as if I am just here to be here. My job is to keep doing my exercises and take care of myself. Keep growing spiritually etc. So that is what I will do from now on. Just focus on taking care of myself. If that person wants to open up to me then fine open up. If not then alright don't be bothered by me taking care of myself. Growing more spiritual everyday.
